The Mom I Want To Be

I haven't been able to remember many of my dreams lately, probably because parenthood keeps you tired enough to just zonk out at the end of the day. But the dreams I do remember, per usual, are still as vivid as ever. The ones with family are nice--especially when we get to do things in the dream that we can't do together currently because of the pandemic. I still remember before we started visiting again, I had a dream of my mom and I just sitting next to each other on a set of stairs in a house, chatting away about everyday things. I really missed that and feel lucky that at least now we get to do that much again. But I love the dreams that leave me feeling something when I wake up--not regret, disappointment, or even relief, but the ones where I leave feeling happy, with a true sense of closure or satisfaction or just calm. The morning of June 13, I dreamed that my family was on vacation in another state, going to visit my grandparents on my Dad's side. When my gr...

We made it to a year! I've been a mom for one full year! I still can hardly believe I'm a mom, but I do have this little baby--toddler--to prove it. After baby steps on May 16, this little toddler showed off some real walking! On May 27 he took his steps from one place to another (chair to couch) and has been practicing ever since. He's gotten good at pulling himself up to stand on his own--no more furniture or parent required for leverage. Crawling is still faster and more stable, but he constantly shows us he really does want to get good at walking. And it's too adorable to see his jerky sidestep around the room like a little crab or power forward on shaky legs only to lose balance and land on his diaper with a giggle. In addition to this awesome milestone, I'd be remiss if I didn't mention baby's first birthday "party" and first cake smash too! The morning of June 5, I was as nervous and excited as if I had planned a whole big bash ...